From the Lectionary this morning

A quick reflection on the lectionary text this morning, Deuteronomy 6:4-12

⁴ Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one.^{[a] 5} Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. ⁶ These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. ⁷ Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. ⁸ Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. ⁹ Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.
¹⁰ When the Lord your God brings you into the land he swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, to give you—a land with large, flourishing cities you did not build, ¹¹ houses filled with all kinds of good things you did not provide, wells you did not dig, and vineyards and olive groves you did not plant—then when you eat and are satisfied, ¹² be careful that you do not forget the Lord, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.

In this text we are am tempted to focus on the first half- the all important first commandment, yes? However, this morning I am struck by the overwhelming grace found in the second half. God provides us with land, with homes, with water and food and we can take and eat and be satisfied. It's easy, especially in a first world country, to say "Yeah, I get this! We just moved into this awesome house, and we are going to be stewards of our land and we have unlimited water for which we pay a nominal fee!" But it's not always like that, right? The West is going through a drought. The Jews and the Palestines, not to mention ISIS and the other splinter groups, are fighting for that exact land referenced in these Old Testament passages, physical land they believe God has awarded to them. Does it mean we do not need to work hard for what we have? Our house did not just land in our laps. Brian and I have been stewards of our funds, which in turn allowed us to buy our house. 

When I read that text, I see it describing not physical land and vineyards and food, but God's continuous grace. What else is continually available to us, without price and without end? We have so much good in our lives, and when I see that good, when I see my husband, our son, our family, I see God's grace manifest in the world. I am filled again and again and again. I am careful that I do not forget the Lord, lest I think that I can create this all on my own. That I can create anything, really. 

In the church that I grew up in, we often spoke of God as being right here with us, closer than our own skin. If you listen closely, prayers were affirmations of God's grace and presence, not petitions for future help. I see evidence of those prayers in this passage; God has always and is always providing for us.

Snow day, second verse same as the first

We are in the second round of snow days this winter here in Nashville. According to natives, this is an unusual winter- my neighbor commented that this is the most snow his nine year old has ever seen. We have 4 inches- not much for this Midwesterner! Nashville + frozen precipitation = total panic. We had an ice storm in mid-February and the public schools were out for the next two weeks. Two ENTIRE weeks. That was the second half of February! Thankfully Caleb's school was only out for 1 week (private school means no bussing) and my parents were here to stay with him once Brian and I had to go back to work.

This week we are on snow day number 2. All of us were off yesterday, but Caleb's school is still closed today so I'm taking time to be with him since my parents are back in Wisconsin. Caleb going to a school rather than a traditional day care has its pros and cons. We love the feeling of the school and the community it creates- football games, a campus for the babies to take buggy rides, etc. But when weather hits, we find that they close for longer, like a school. Other daycares might have a late start, but Caleb's school is flat out closed.

So today I'm a stay at home mom. I'm pretty much always happy to be working and am looking forward to a career in ministry, but today I'm remembering how much I liked maternity leave. Maybe it's not having to go out in the winter? There was snow on the ground for 100% of the time I was on maternity leave. But I'm remembering once Caleb was past 6 weeks or so, there was a schedule we followed, and today I'm feeling the same way. There are snacks breaks, with milk for him and tea for me. Today there will be an outing to the grocery store, saving me a weekend trip. He's currently taking his first nap, and will take another later, an opportunity for me to get a jump on dinner. I have this image in my head, if I was a stay at home mom- lazy mornings with a real breakfast, a schedule of crafts and snacks, outings to the library, walks, etc. We are also saving money because at home Caleb wears his cloth diapers. This week I paid $8.99 for 18 diapers (Pampers) so at that rate, a cloth diaper saves 50 cents each. That's $3-5 per day! We use Pampers overnight, Target brand at school and cloth on the weekends/snow days.

Sometimes staying at home sounds perfectly idyllic. The reality is, 90% of the time I like going to work, knowing that Caleb is giggling with his friends, doing crafts at school and being cuddled by his teachers. It's not financially feasible for our family, but today that stay at home mom dream is awfully tempting...

Pulling out the usually hidden toys from the closet.

Real snow, not just ice!

Snow days mean homemade everything. Link to recipe below.

This is from the ice storm back in February.

Snow day fort! This is also from February, I just happen to really like that outfit on Caleb.

First snow outing! As you can see, we're especially unprepared. Those are socks on his hands.

In this amazing stay at home fantasy I also make homemade everything for meals. Yesterday that meant bbq crockpot chicken with homemade buns and cole slaw with homemade mayo. The buns are so easy and ten times better than storebought ones. Very little hands on time and you most likely have everything in your pantry. Same goes for the mayo- it's a Serious Eats recipe that uses a stick blender. It does not involve slowly drizzling oil as you attempt to whisk, which takes three or four hands. I would encourage anyone to try it- I'm not sure I'll buy mayonnaise again! 

I'm grateful for these little extra days that means time with our sweet boy who's growing up so fast. 

Cuddles, few and far between

Caleb is an active little boy. He loves to run around, to find his toys and bring them to you, to turn the pages in the book faster than you can read. For the past two nights when Brian has walked in the door, Caleb has run past Brian (who used to get a hug!) and immediately to his ride-on Thomas the Train. The meaning is clear: "Welcome home Daddy! Push me! No, no hugs, down, down, push, push, choo choo!"

We like to think we sleep trained Caleb not to need to be rocked to sleep or have someone with him, but truly, I think he's just an independent kid. I love that about him, but it has one serious drawback: a lack of cuddles. My child does not cuddle. If he's going to sleep, you better put him in his bed, otherwise, get a book, he needs something to do.

This morning Caleb woke up crying with his third or fourth wet diaper - thinking we need to go up a size on the overnight with that one. It was 5 am, an hour before we usually wake him up, and my turn to get up with him. Close enough to morning, he was hungry as well, so we got a bottle and sat back down in the rocker. I haven't been up with him in the dark hours for a few months now- he's been sleeping through the night consistently since September. The quiet of the house settled on us as we rocked, him finishing his bottle, the comfort of being warm, dry, fed and snuggled into Mama's robe lowering his eyelids just the slightest. I pulled him against me and for 15 or 20 minutes we rocked there, his little head with all its thick hair against my arm, fingers gently stroking his blankie, not quite asleep but not ready to play. I felt my phone start to wake up in my robe pocket, the predictable text, call, email loop that meant his school was sending us an urgent message. Was school closed again? (No. They were letting us know.) I heard Brian get up and get in the shower, knowing he'd had to take over with Caleb to let me get ready soon. I felt Caleb's breathing go slow and steady, his little body resting, reading itself for the day.

In the hurried mornings, in the evenings, in the waiting for Brian to get home "Mommy can't pick you up right now, she's working on dinner" moments, it's so hard to get these precious opportunities. It's such a mom cliche to say "it goes so fast!" but it does. At this time last year I was still on maternity leave, Caleb was 5 weeks old, still sleeping everywhere, not yet rolling or giggling or saying "All done!" If I could see him never cuddling again, would I have sleep trained him so well? Probably, it pays off 90% of the time. But I'd take a few more dark mornings with him not quite awake if I had my choice.

8 weeks before last frost

Planted:
Lettuce, Kale, Broccoli, Red Onions, Yellow Onions, Parsley, Cilantro, Red Cabbage, Red Bell Peppers and Eggplant.
Everything has sprouted except the herbs, peppers and eggplant.

Outside: Completely frozen over! Those in-ground seeds are going to have to wait a few more weeks...