I do an awful lot of looking forward. Brian and I joke and dream about our "future" family. We look forward to spending time with our parents. We get excited about seeing our friends on the weekends. My dear husband has been gone all weekend at a conference and I can't wait to have him home tonight. I'm almost off to my new in-laws for Thanksgiving vacation and I can't hardly wait.
We have so many blessings in our life, which I'm reminded of every day, every week, every happy month that goes by. I can look back and trace our relationship, every moment of it sweet in a different way. I can see how happy we were at the very beginning, figuring each other out. How much fun we had getting to know each other's families. The anticipation of being "pre-engaged" (and the stressed tears that came with that). The whirlwind of a four-month engagement. I can look back and see all the happiness in each stage, but I also remember always looking forward to what was coming next.
This year as I'm thinking about thankfulness, I'm thinking about being thankful in the moment. Instead of looking forward to Brian coming home, being thankful for time spent with my parents and sitting in church with a dear family I don't get to see often. Thankful for some quiet time spent in my kitchen, making delicious gifts for family. Instead of thinking, "oh how much fun will the the holidays be when we have kids?!" enjoying the freedom that comes with traveling just the two of us.
This season, as I continue to try simplify my life and celebrate the spirit of the season, my goal to be present in my thankfulness.
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